*the old man turns 61*
(i texted him happy birthday shortly before midnight)
(no response)
(he probably blocked my phone #)
friday night
(finally back at the motel)
(out of intoxicants)
(time for detox)
(just energy drinks for the time being)
(pigged out)
(2 pepperoni hot pockets)
(4 beef jerky + string cheese)
(jalapeno / cheddar)
(vegetable chips)
(teeth sting from the monsters)
also got two beef dinners + chili with beans
(and 2-pack of pepperoni hot pockets)
$125 in foodstamps account
(use coupons)
(how do i make travel money now?)
(“the voice” tryouts in NYC are january 24th)
drinking water
(less than 2 iced coffees)
(nasty shits)
(took a long nap)
(still horny)
(now it’s 9pm and i’m lazy)
(still gotta clean room)
(i have the weekend before they boot me out)
(too cold to venture outside)
why did i forget my camera battery?
last showered wednesday afternoon
(clean up again monday)
when will cuomo be back in touch?
gotta make it back to some library this weekend
now sleep schedule is fucked
nobody’s calling me up
mistakenly took jackie’s keys this morning
(got a cigarette from her car last night)
took 12:13pm 606 bus from east state street in trenton to rider
(the whole gang was still there)
(along with aaron)
gandharva has yoga classes tonight
the videos are sloppily taken
got a ride back from rick
(told a modified truth about my motel situation)
(gave me a box of go lean cereal)
(talking about a trip to brooklyn with cuomo)
monday morning take 8:43am 600 bus to trenton for more group sessions
wish the old man happy birthday?
61 years old
now i’m in unproductive mode
(with bad swampass)
even the libido isn’t inspiring me
this week was unproductive
starting wednesday afternoon
wasted thursday at jackie’s crib
then nobody wanted to go out to the ivy inn
slept on gandharva’s floor
(everyone else slept over as well)
matthew and the 2 youngest girls were pissed that we came over late and distracted them from homework + sleep
(made things awkward)
(i just couldn’t get in the zone last night)
(needed to sleep some more)
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*👨🔬🕵️♀️🙇♀️*RESEARCH JOURNALS*🙇♂️👩🔬🕵️♂️*
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👈👈👈 ☜ *THE OLD MAN TURNS ’60’*
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*THE OLD MAN TURNS ’62’* ☞ 👉👉👉
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👈👈👈☜*“THE OLD MAN’S BIRTHDAY”* ☞ 👉👉👉
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💕💝💖💓🖤💙🖤💙🖤💙🖤❤️💚💛🧡❣️💞💔💘❣️🧡💛💚❤️🖤💜🖤💙🖤💙🖤💗💖💝💘
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*🌈✨ *TABLE OF CONTENTS* ✨🌷*
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🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥*we won the war* 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥