*13 september 2015*
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(dosed myself with 15 benadryl capsules last night)
(375mg)
(but the computer was dead and so i was rendered obsolete)
(will it turn on when i return to the library?)
(i was ready to film a documentary from my room)
(and record acoustic performances)
(and sift through my voice memos to write chord progression for song sketches)
(instead i sketched notes for “queen deena” in my notepad)
(and recorded more voice memos)
(then my libido overwhelmed me and i started “tweaking” at 8pm)
(fell asleep at 11:15pm)
(then i slept way longer than 12 hours)
(smoked a final small bowl)
(took the last 9 pink pills)
(2 cigarettes left)
(savetd them for the library)
(took a shit + brushed my teeth)
(then i headed to mercer library)
(bought a monster @ CVS)
(chelsea wasn’t on duty)
(DXM shelf still empty)
(and i noted a note on the cash register)
(“stop teen abuse of DXM”)
(“you must be 18+ to purchase a bottle of tuss)
(now i’m at the library)
(comforting high)
(but will it be gone soon?)
(do i go into CVS princeton to pick up DXM?)
(or are all CVS stores not allowed to sell DXM-only tuss?)
(more pink pills?)
(or will brother john deliver grass)
(arv spent the night with margit + cheryl)
(he felt the need to text me: “had a late night snack with cheryl”)
(arv turned into kip langston when he threw me out of the house…)
(because he noted his sisters + mother prefer me to him)
(just like kip realized that i would potentially steal his gf + deena)
(and he wanted to replace brink jones in their eternal threesome)
(john’s gone…)
(begone john…)
(farewell friend…)
(we’ve reached that bitter end…)
(now begone john…)
there were headphones available next to the library…
(more comfortable than iphone headphones)
(should’ve hit up princeton campus last night)
(because i was looking + feeling good)
(but john wouldn’t provide the ride)
(and i didn’t feel like walking)
(especially if it was raining)
(ate stale bagels + peanut butter last night)
($20 left on CVS card)
(took some healthy shits + brushed my teeth)
(11 september 2015)
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