-peanut butter journals-

(‘chunky organic peanut butter’ + ‘the last banana’)

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(ate microwave pizza and two small peanut butter and bananas on whole wheat)

peanut butter and jelly

(plus peanut butter on whole wheat)

peanut butter / concord grape jelly / frosted flakes

(i was just thinking about them yesterday!)

(how i didn’t want them anymore)

(and took one of scooter’s hot dog rolls to make myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich)

(whose grape jelly was that?)

ate two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches on hamburger rolls before missus petucci came and started yelling…

peanut butter and jelly (straight from the jar)

ate the rest of the peanut butter + yogurt…

as well as the light red kidney beans…

took a nap from 10:30pm to 12:30pm…that can’t be good for my sleep schedule… listened to opie and anthony and watched house…got through the individual song final cut projects…

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26 september 2014

getting fucking desperate…

scraping the bottom of peanut butter jars…resorting to plain grape jelly…or worse yet plain tomato sauce…still got honey cereal to rely on…although i have no sources of protein…

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18 october 2014

resorting to peanut butter mixed with grape jelly right out of the jar…

i don’t even refrigerate the grape jelly…using the same old plastic fork…i just force myself to eat when i’m on drinking binges…although i’m not very hungry…

peanut butter + dried cranberries

peanut butter + grape jelly
(in the same can)
(on whole wheat bread)

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5 june 2014:

then i pigged out at michael anthony’s apartment

chunky peanut butter / grape jelly / whole wheat bread

my mother is feeding me like the little kid i am…

(peanut butter crackers + microwaveable kids’ meals)

and finished off the peanut butter…

ate 4 burritos and 2 meatball lean pockets

and lots of cheerios + peanut butter

then i got back to the room and ate peanut butter + grape jelly + yogurt + bread…bought three four locos with my last $8 at the trenton liquor store…fruit punch flavor…force them down and clean up your act…then go out tonight…doesn’t seem to be raining too badly…

i wasted my good vibes on 2 burritos and peanut butter + cranberries…then i slept until 10:30pm…

finally ate some peanut butter + cranberries and passed out until 8pm…the high is gone and it’s getting chilly…no word from MMB…i texted him “i stoned u brown”…

eating moldy bread…i need a fucking freezer…the teeth sting…cranberries + peanut butter…i’ll be out of food soon…

eating beans cranberries peanut butter out of boredom…beautiful fall day…

went to CVS for arizona iced tea / peanut butter / snickers bar / peanut mnms / coffee / monster…

all i have to look forward to is peanut butter + cigarettes…i’ll mix them with cereal…

puffins peanut butter cereal

mixed peanut butter + applesauce

(along with a strawberry granola bar)

i pigged out on vegetable beans / refried beans / sliced carrots / peanut butter / water

and watched lots of TV all day

stale bagel / stale jalapeno biscuits / stale (and ant-infested) sticky bun / peanut butter

as soon as the energy drinks started wearing off i pigged out on all the food…even after the burritos and pizza i continued to nibble on cornflakes and peanut butter…my bagels have all gone stale…my teeth sting from lack of brushing and monsters…i haven’t showered since monday…i’d rather focus my energy drink buzzes on music editing / recording than blogging at the library…

the fat ecuadorian woman who runs the program recognized me…she had some new young white male sign me in…how humiliating…i explained that i was living in a lawrenceville motel…then the geeky middle-aged white man got me my food as a southern-fried old man delivered some vegetables from his garden…i got 3 jars of peanut butter / 3 cans of vegetables / 2 boxes of cereal (cornflakes + peanut butter puffs) / a bag of cupcakes / 2 loaves of bread / 6 applesauce containers / a can of cranberry sauce / a can of kidney beans / a bag of hickory honey potato chips)…forgot to pick up plastic utensils…

pigged out on bread and peanut butter out of sheer boredom…

i ate too much yesterday…my last burrito (because they are supposed to be frozen)…and almost all of my first can of peanut butter…

the nigger next door leaves before 2pm…what the hell does he do?…some white dude just waved to me…

(another beautiful summer day…)

(pigged out on peanut butter and red grapes last night)

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(absentmindedly going back to the ‘peanut butter + chocolate cereal’)

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