*october 2012*

*leap year*

“empty lords”

you’ve been sent forth to kill
then send me the bill
then shoot me and kill

i dreamt of a ragtag rock band performing on “little eddie’s” street (upper drive off johnston drive)…it consisted of piano / guitar / drums…

what’s mine is my own

now i’m in the zone

she looked very yummy

i stared like a dummy

i start to feel crummy

she had tons of money

some get it right

some get it wrong

some try to fight

some not so strong

some so uptight

committing it to reason….

his wives and his sideshows are paying his bills

his love as a power that thrills

he’s popping his pills and he’s swallowing them down

one made him smile and one made him frown

earning my bread with the passage of time

i really don’t like people

i especially don’t like you

some remaining steadfast

the others turn brand new

light my cigarette and take my breath away….

he’s your long-neglected victim

you had swung and you had kicked’em

i used to be acceptable and now i’m a danger

i used to be a bullet and now i’m a manger

mother saint that i am that you aint

a weeping little girl ghost

i’ve got my freak flag flying….

my father’s a flame

my mother a saint

they called me a king but maybe i ain’t

i’m always learning and growing but never quite knowing

i was better before…

before the war…

before i was washed ashore…

down the road i will surely explode

and that’ll be that

i was trying to seem electric

but nobody knew

now nobody know

from the moment i was misdirected

o scassera

are you even there-a?

spending your life on your madre’s couch?

how utterly uncouth!

i’m a committed drinker just as i was a committed doper

i should really try heroin….

who cannot be beat

lying in heat

it’s much too much to say…

“hotter younger sisters”

he’s got a pop to his name

he’s got no meat on his frame

i’m good in the heart and sick in the head

i literally just shit myself

my heart’s turned to garbage

calf / giraffe

pretend that they’re sinking still they’re way up there….

love it or hate it

take it or leave it….

i haven’t eaten a real meal in years

even god needs to eat

choose between one evil or another

your sister or your brother

your father or your mother

your son you’ll soon discover

your daugher dying naked

you

this may not be paradise, but still it seems OK

i may not have the energy, but still i’ll be OK

take a walk in the sun

you’re not doing bad

you’ve already won

you ain’t hurtin no one

in the same old mess, they said it best

i refuse to lose

im the sweetest stray cat….

strippers in slippers

but what…

larger than life and fulla spite…

i’ll dress you in feathers and lift up your skirt

and smash you to smithers, i swear it won’t hurt

and take you to nightclubs that won’t ever die

i’ll follow you to holland

she’ll pass like a fad

but that’s not which which worries me

uncle joey said he never knew me

i had a terrible day

watching some play in bayberry

cleaning up room

a whole new reality revealed unto me

stop all your work and get ready to play

wake up from the night and start living the day

the angry moms

some stay after school

the whole world seems in league with you….

i’m gettin ready for the landslide of the century

for surely obama will win…

doomed for sure…

somehow astound

i’d give it out but there’s no one to receive it…

dream of chrissy outside shopping center and bike riding

cops in pursuit

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*👨‍🔬🕵️‍♀️🙇‍♀️*SKETCHES*🙇‍♂️👩‍🔬🕵️‍♂️*

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👈👈👈 ☜ *“OCTOBER 2011”*

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*“OCTOBER 2013”* ☞ 👉👉👉

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👈👈👈☜*“OCTOBER JOURNALS”* ☞ 👉👉👉

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*🌈✨ *TABLE OF CONTENTS* ✨🌷*

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🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥*we won the war* 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥